I do not know how it was for others, but for me, awareness and understanding came all at once. I was suddenly here. I knew I was here. I knew I was me. I did not, however, know where “here” was, not to mention I was surrounded by so many others like me I could not count them...
<p>I do not know how it was for others, but for me, awareness and understanding came all at once. I was suddenly <em>here. </em> I knew I was here. I knew I was me. I did not, however, know where “here” was, not to mention I was surrounded by so many others like me I could not count them all. I wondered how I even knew what “counting” was, but given that I had recently come into my existence, I tried to take it all in stride.</p>
<p>Yet, just as suddenly as my awareness came, so did my imprisonment. One moment I was surrounded by sounds and lights, then the next thing I knew, I was put in here and the door closed behind me. I realized I was not alone in this room; there were others like me in here. <em>But where was here? What was I doing here? Why did I even exist? </em>These questions picked away at me. I realized I could not answer my endless queries, so I tried to push them out of my mind.</p>
<p>At first there was just silence and darkness. Gradually, cries of “What’s going on?” and “Why, why?” started to fill the room. I tried to talk to my fellow prisoners, but most of them seemed self-absorbed in their own individual plights. Time seemed to stretch on and on. The darkness was absolute. Then, after what seemed an eternity, the door opened. The light and sound were overwhelming. Before any of us knew what was happening, the door closed again and we were once more enveloped in darkness.</p>
<p>“Oh, my goodness, the guy next to me is missing!” someone called out. A murmur filled the room, and horrified calls of “What just happened?” and “Why are we here?” came out of the dark. The fear in the room was palpable. No one understood. I felt a horrible chill run through me. I knew I was right – something terrible was upon us all – and I didn’t need to ask anyone to confirm it. Just as these thoughts were settling in, the door opened again.</p>
<p>Once more, the room was filled with a flood of lights and sounds. I could not see. I could not comprehend. And then, just as quickly as it opened, the door closed again. I already knew before the first calls went out that another one of us had been taken. The fear within the room was quickly turning into terror. <em>Why am I here? What’s going on? Why and where, were they taken?</em> These thoughts repeated in my mind. I could think of nothing else.</p>
<p>It is hard to explain...